July 2011
If..
if i go out with you what make you think its going to be different my mom is going to be a bitch && i wont see you as much i dont want to hurt you &&i dont want to say no …….but ill talk to my mom about it ok (:
eye's with pain <.3

1) starve to death
2) end up at the hospital
3) take all the thinks that i need to make me alive && turn them OFF
thats my plan && thats all i ever needed a plan that woudl make me happy i dont need no one to make me happy i dont need you or you i just need to get my self out of my skin i hate the way i look i hate the way i am i just dont knwo what to do no more …thsi is a goodbye
love && pain.............

UNTILL………..
she meet this boy named Anthony she knew that it would never be ………The next day at school Anthony starts talking to her ,she was scared to talk to him .But at the end they started to talk and became friends , but she wanted to be more then just friends and so did he . He had fallen for her ….her eyes so bright ,and i couldn’t stop smiling when he was with her .
so they went out …they last a very long time
UNTILL…….
it happen
Rose said to him ; I need to tell you something I LOVE YOU more that i ever loved anyone before
*she leans to give him hug but…. he leans back*
Anthony; you know that i loved you but my heart got stolen by another girl
Rose: thats fine
*she tries to hold her tears she looks at him and her eyes start watering even more*
she turns around && says to him :
“I WOULD DIE FOR YOU goodbye ….and she whispered forever “
she turns away and starts running home she walks into the kitchen and grabs a knife .
she starts cutting her self thinking that she was never good enough for anyone . she covers her face and starts to cry saying that she shouldn’t have been alive .
*the phone rings and its Anthony*
hey i need to tell you that i love you not that other girl how could i have been so blind and stupid I LOVE YOU AND ONLY YOU
Rose whispers; *its to late*
and hangs up the phone she bleeds to death on the floor Anthony runs to her house and sees her on the floor dead he gives her a kiss he takes his shirt off and gets the knife and starts to cut him self
” she was all i ever wanted and know she’s gone “
he notice that on the wall there was writing in blood saying……..
“I SAID THAT I WOULD DIE FOR YOU AND I DID”
they found her body and Anthony’s dead in her room
June 2011
I get all self-consciousness when comparing myself to other guys.
There’s regular guys:
And then there’s me:
When someone asks if you and your friend are going out.
Outside:
Noooo!
Inside:
I wish… :(
*crush




